Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Sorry it's been so long....moving!

I'm sitting in the library of my new, ridiculously large home right now, basking in the sunshine and the piped-in music, wondering why my life is suddenly going so well. I'm happy, healthy (if a bit chubby), secure and in a stable relationship. At some point in the next two weeks, it will all implode, I'm sure. But for now, I'm enjoying every minute of it! 

Today, however, I want to talk about classism. I went shopping for house stuff today - trash cans, bath mats, etc. Normally, before I go shopping, I'll make a detailed list of what stores I'm headed to and what I need to get at each one. Today, however, I was feeling frisky, so I just trotted out the front door without a list. Mistake. As soon as I pulled in to the parking lot at Wal-mart, my mind wiped itself clean. I stood in the front of the store, thinking REALLY HARD and not remembering a damn thing I wanted when I made my mental list last night. So I left with razors, haircutting scissors (Tony needs a cheap trim - God help him.) a trash can and some lemon cake mix. At Staples, I actually got what I needed (hanging file folder frames) and at HomeGoods, I tried to fill in the gaps I'd left at Wal-mart with a crate, an ice-cube tray and some window cleaner. I am truly hopeless at remembering things. 

But the most striking part of the day (beyond my completely random disregard for practical things in favor of ice-cube trays and lemon cake mix) was the difference in shoppers at Wal-mart and Home Goods. 

The stores themselves sell remarkably similar things. Of course, HomeGoods doesn't sell tires, but in the areas of inventory overlap, the products are the same, at least on the surface. Glasses, plates, pots, pans, trash cans, sheets, towels, etc.  And HomeGoods ain't exactly Nordstrom - the products are overstock leftovers from other stores, for pete's sake. But in the line at Wal-mart, I stood behind a older gentleman arguing vehemently with the checkout lady (who was, herself, old enough to resemble a dried apricot) about a $.25 coupon for his Chock Full O'Nuts coffee, while the escaped mental patient behind me breathed moistly on the nape of my neck. The store was packed to the gills with the elderly, the oppressed and the harried mothers of 12 seeking discount diapers. 

At HomeGoods, though, I stood sedately in line with other women who looked remarkably like me. I was probably the youngest one there, but not by much. Women in flats, jeans and hooded sweaters bought their deeply discounted trash cans with credit cards fished from the bottom of designer handbags. After we'd checked out, we pushed our carts (or in my case, hauled my crate) out to our new cars, headed off to lunches at home. 

Which brings me to my question - why do we sort ourselves so efficiently into class levels? I paid less at HomeGoods for products that I could have gotten at Wal-mart, so it can't be pricing that keeps us apart. The HomeGoods was half a mile down the road from the Wal-mart, and on the bus line, so it can't be access. Maybe folks like Senior Crazypants the Neck Breather aren't comfortable hanging with my homies - short-haired housewives and stay-at-home moms in their sensible flats and trouser-leg jeans. Maybe my homies don't like Chock Full O'Nuts coffee? All I know is that I continue to feel uncomfortable no matter where I shop and without my list, I'm hopeless. 

Friday, May 1, 2009

Exercise by osmosis

Okay, so it's no secret that I'm trying to lose weight. Or, at least, that I want to lose weight and don't try hard enough to accomplish that. 

So now that I've failed at the last three diets I tried, I'm just bumping along, pretending to be happy that I weigh what I do. And watching a LOT of The Biggest Loser. Who knew it was such riveting television?

Did you know that, like, five channels show The Biggest Loser? I had no idea. When I pulled up my channel guide on the DVR to see how many I could record, I was astounded. (And I recorded all of them, of course.) Yesterday, I watched most of Season 1 - having a DVR means I can condense one hour of television into 15 crackling, suspense-filled minutes - and today, I saw an episode from a more recent season. (I have no idea which one AND they totally ended it in a cliffhanger, damn them!)

I've never been into The Biggest Loser before. I'd heard of it, of course, but never watched an episode. I'd read a couple of breathless "They Lost Half Their Body Weight!" articles in People about it, and I own a Jillian Michaels game for my Wii, but never really got interested in the series. Now I'm hooked. I love watching the transformations - the people shrinking before your very eyes. I love when Jillian gets all excited and her voice starts squeaking and Bob gets mad at someone and then has to have 20 minutes of zen-time to pull himself together while his students console him. What I don't love are man-boobs and big ol' man nipples. There are more man-nipples per minute on that show than on any other, including COPS. And we all know it is a requirement for men being arrested on COPS that you have to be shirtless. Bleah. Seriously, would it add that much weight to have them get on that scale in their little tank tops? The ladies do. 

But now that I weigh more than I ever have and am really struggling with my weight, it gives me an even better reason to watch the show. It doesn't help me lose weight, but watching them work out is strenuous! The sweating, the grunting, Jillian screaming, Bob hugging - I feel like I'm the one at the gym. I can burn vicarious calories without ever leaving the couch! Yay! 

And don't even get me started on Oprah yesterday - Kirstie Alley was on and she's gained back all the weight she lost on Jenny Craig, plus 10 more just to keep the original 75 pounds company. Talk about making me feel better about myself. She was honest, funny and self-deprecating and it made me realize that we all slip up and we just have to keep trying. If only she hadn't done that horrible white manicure that reminded me of all the girls in junior high who painted their nails with White-Out. Bleah times two. 

I think my DVR just clicked into record mode, though, so I'm off to feel the burn. Hug me, Bob.